I try not to regret anything. But there was one time that i still reflect on. I didn't take a chance on something, because I was scared of being hurt. Or being alone, I cant really remember anymore.
I've wondered ever since my second year of university if I made the right decision. I chose Evil Abed, when I wanted to chose Jeff. because Evil Abed looked like the real Abed, so I think that I thought maybe he could grow into real Abed.
I was too scared that Jeff and I were too different, so I didn't want to lose my friend.
I don't know if I regret the choice I made, so much as the fact that I made it very rashly. out of loyalty, and fairness. and not wanting to hurt anyone's feelings.
I wish I'd chosen more with my heart. But I was too busy hiding it. So a safe sure thing was just the best option.
Some folks may view this as me revealing that I have some kind of feelings. Trust me, I'm not. My one and only Abed is perfect for me. though evil Abed has fooled me once or twice, who among us can say that we've never been fooled and had our heart broken?
I'm just speculating on the Past. I find looking back on it now, in Hindsight (see what I did there?!) gives me a new perspective on things. Helps me to make sense of things that bother me and let them go faster.
I'm really enjoying a lot of the questions I've been getting too! Ask me any question you have. if there is any mistake to make in a relationship I've made it. Trust me! Or feel free to share some of your worst mistakes, blunders or stories with me! The really impressive ones will be features on the blog!! Share with me at HundredThousand
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