Motivate Me.

Things aren't going as well as I would have hoped.
I'm not yet in a position to advance aspects of my life to a point where I want them to be. It's getting very difficult to be positive, because I've been given a few extra obstacles in the last year. Things I can't control or stop from happening.
That's probably one of the most frustrating things you can possibly go through. To know something makes you unhappy and still have to watch it happen to you, and live through it, with no real way of recovering the loss.
Maybe that's just another reason I'm really messed up, but sometimes people are too insecure and ignorant to know any better. Sometimes people do rude things like point out mistakes or flaws in other people, to feel good about themselves. Sometimes, people are just so unable to cope with life like everyone else, that they become very self centered and don't know when they are neglecting to treat people around them the ways we all deserve. People who are so unhappy with themselves that it makes them insecure and incapable of being happy for another person. Everyone has had that one friend or roommate that was just impossible to be around sometimes. If they are having a bad day everyone around them is too. Even if your having a good day, these people will belittle you and make you feel low. It's not their fault. They can't accept your happiness as anything other than a personal insult. Their happiness is all about themselves, so you need to make sure you're not wasting your happiness on someone who is just not worth it.
Sometimes we get so invested in something (a job, a relationship, a hobby, or a project) that we're motivated to work harder toward our own goals that we forget other people don't want to hear all about us all day long.
We all have a point and time when someone should take us aside and tell us that the world does not revolve around us.
I believe that we've become a society of self reflection. We all spend so much time in our own heads going over and over conversations that happen. and things that might happen. and what we will say if someone does something to us. Probably more so than all those we spend hours in our own heads saying all the things we wished we had. We all wish we were confident, direct and secure. So maybe we should all stop worrying about everyone else's downfalls, and realize that we need to work on ourselves.

amazing photo find!! Love this! share it!

Ask:fm (bit of a rant. grab some coffee)

I really like how you express yourself and that you live the values that you write about. However I also find it intimidating. I often find myself intimidated by people of strong value, and find myself asking questions like "am I the type of person that they consider awful'. What advice do you have for somebody who is insecure in such a way and feels they are never "good enough" for someone like you?


First of all, please let me say thank you for such kind words. It seems that you put a lot of pressure on yourself, and it makes me sad to read that, because I believe that every person has value. It's just a matter of their ability to see it. It's pretty clear to me that you have trouble seeing it a lot of the time.
Everyone deserves to feel good about themselves, and be happy. The first thing that I did was assess how I treated people. I paid attention to people's reactions to me, things I did that were confrontational, or self serving. Nobody intends to do it. But we all do, so we all need to check ourselves (as gangsters with street cred such as myself, often say) and make sure that we aren't being a self centered jackass who only things about what they want.....sry that got away from me there.. See. I'm just as bitter and bitchy as anyone else from time to time. We're all just humans.

You don't have to be intimidated by anybody, because everyone is equal. really, you only view them as better, because you don't value yourself properly. I, personally don't consider anyone to be awful, unless they have done something to me, or someone close to me, to warrant my thinking so. I will never ever go out of my way to say anything rude to anyone. In fact, If i don't like someone, I probably just don't speak to them. Because I don't want anything to do with them. If you're someone that I think is awful, than your probably someone who was in my life, but is no longer. so don't sweat it. I promise I don't think about anyone who has had any negative impact on myself or my loved ones. You sound as though you're someone who is still around my extended circle (or being an internet creep. but I hope not) though, so please feel free to message me and talk anytime

Ask.fm: What's the worst thing someone can do on a first date?

There are three huge things for me.

1. Be respectful to anyone working during your date. A server, or bartender. Don't be a jerk, or do jerk things.

2. talk about himself qll night. If I want to know, I'll ask about me. If your not asking about me, I assume it's because you don't care, and i lose interest quickly.

3. Manners. MANNERS MANNERS MANNERS. Hold doors open. say please and thank you. do not curse or use rude language that could offend me. Not because I believe I'm entitled to special treatment but because I believe the way one interacts with their trusted friends is not how one should behave when making a first impression. And if your smart enough to do so why take a lazy, classless route. If someone respects themselves, they'll probably respect you.

Actual hindsight.

Is it more important to readjust your goals for a once in a lifetime experience? Or should the initial goal be reassessed once we find a place in life that is a surprise comfort zone.
A relationship, or a job, or a group of friends that brings you happiness are very valuable things to some people. but not to others. How do you give each other what you need and do the things that your partner needs to make them happy, instinctively, when your instincts are completely different from your loved ones.
I have to admit I found myself in a relationship like this. I've never met an Abed who was so completely opposite to myself. He gave the impression of being vain and slow, which I don't fully understand because now that I know 500% more about him then I did back in those early times, I see the things that gave me that impression, and now that I understand them better, I realize that the last things you could ever use to describe him is egotistical or ignorant.
I found him unbelievably attractive. Truth be told I had known who he was for a really long time. We had met at Noisy Nan"s (a popular jam space, a few years back, tons of people always jamming and hanging out. It was fantastic.) and I was all fluttery and embarrassed  Cause I'm me. and that's nothing like being a normal person with a working brain. Anyway this was months before we were ever a couple. I quickly found out that he had a girlfriend. I was a little crushed. But moved on to date someone, I thought I could fix. Thank God I got out of that. Better late then never I suppose.
But I digress. I realize now that being someone with so much emotional need was just as frustrating as being someone with little emotional needs. Abed and I were so different. So we had to spend more time in the other person's shoes then our own, just to connect. The hardest part about communicating differently, and showing your affection and love is different ways is knowing what your partner appreciates, and what they don't recognize as signs of affection. Try to speak someone else's language, before you expect them to speak yours. Try to understand your loved ones
I think the key is not to find what makes you happy. It's to find the person that has all the qualities you love. and if you want to make them happy, maybe you get lucky and that person wants to spend their time making you happy as well. It takes some people a long time to find that person. Some people find it once in a lifetime. If you have found love in your life, you're a very lucky person, so cherish your loved ones. You're lucky to have them.

"Life is only as good as the memories we make"

Everything In It's Place

In a lot of ways it helps economy to have a local scene. Bars pay Bands. Bargoers like to see Cover Bands or a certain genre of music. Therefore there is a place for every person, and every genre and as long as there is an audience for your art, then you will be successful. If you do not have an audience. you need a new plan. It's just that simple. Performing music is not about yourself. You want an audience to come and enjoy your music. Doesn't that immediately make it about what THEY want to see. You can't make people like you. You can make music that they want to listen to. I don't get why this is so hard for people to understand. The perfect most ideal situation in music is making music that you love that is accepted and celebrated by other people. The more the better. But this is not the most common situation. Bands get upset when nobody comes to their shows. You're choosing to make noise that they don't want to listen to. That's what it comes down to. They don't make you listen to shit that you don't want to. You know how that whiny friend who is always negative and complaining and having a pity party. nobody likes being around that friend. So don't be that friend.

Spectacular. I had to share this.

Seriously.

So I made a horrifying discovery today.
I logged on to ask.fm to check my questions and share with some people.
I asked (anonymously) for everyone to share their best friend's best trait. and then to share the 3 things they were most proud of about themselves.
Not a single person had a single good thing to say about themselves.
Not a single thing they were proud of.
That is absolutely heartbreaking. Everyone, especially young people, NEED to have something to be proud of. We need to show the people in our lives that they are important, and that they have things going for them. I'm legitimately sad that nobody on ask.fm is proud of themselves. I truly believe that every single human being is beautiful in their own way. Everyone has something to offer that nobody else does. The only thing sadder than feeling as though you don't have anything, is seeing girls who feel that their body is the one thing that they DO have to offer.
I got a question that asked what I would like to change. I would like to change the way women view themselves. I would like to give them self respect and show them the beauty in everyone so nobody ever has to say "good qualities about myself? I dunno" that is the saddest response I've ever gotten. and I will never forget it. I am however determined to change it.

Peace Out Formspring

So as you know, Formspring is shutting down. I don't think anyone is surprised, I have, however found a great new site that will give you the same options. Ask me anything, or share any story with me. You have no idea how many people you could help just by sharing an experience. sign as "anon" if you don't want your name/info posted and I'll pick a Community Character that I think best fits you! ask.fm/HundredThousand

video killed the industry

So I have made a couple of significant changes this week. A lot is happening. My apologies for not being around.
I began my career on Monday Morning. I'm now an Independent Insurance Agent working for AIL.  Selling Life, accident and Cancer insurance, among other kinds. I'm working with people to find ways to meet their needs and provide for themselves and it feels amazing. Selling Insurance doesn't sound like it woulds be very exciting. But it sort of is. My Co Workers are amazing. My office is here in town, I work whenever I want and I have an extensive, very generous benefits program. I have picked out one of the policies that my company offers, for myself and I'm providing for my whole life, at a very affordable cost because I'm so young.
It's a very exciting position to be in, but it was in no way easy. My education began with a 21 day online program. Paid for by my employer. Which ended with a multiple choice evaluation, of 140 questions. I'm not trying to slight this exam at all. It costs $100 to do. My company also paid that for the first one, and that exam was so horrifying that I left the exam room feeling violated. I scored 54% on the $100 Free Exam. I needed 60%. I wanted to cry, but I didn't. I just went and booked the second one. paid the $100 myself, and wrote it again in two weeks.
2 days later I was at the Confederation Building having my licence processed and given to me. Tuesday and Wednesday, After some training, Jenn took me out in the field with her. We drove to Old Shop and New Harbour, meeting clients and helping them find solutions to their concerns.
People are always so relieved and relaxed after they take care of this stuff. Nobody wants to think about getting older. it's depressing, when you have so much left that you want to do. But making some arrangements now so you (or your family) don't have to in the future is one of the most affordable, important, generous things you can do for your family and loved ones.
So many people lay awake at night, with a seriously ill parent, and worries about their parents, and their own families being in this unfortunate, devastating position.
That's what it comes down to for me. I've never slept well. I can't fall asleep well, i don't stay asleep, and when I wake up I have a hard time getting back to sleep. My mind races. It's mainly the fault of an onset anxiety disorder that I possess. Jealous right?
But there are other people who go to sleep a little easier because of the work I do. Because i care and and I'm a sensitive person so I can't help but attach myself to my work a little. Maybe that is wrong. or stupid. But maybe it means that i actually care, and I have a conscience and that will make me really really good at it.

I've worked in a lot of industries that were much too rough for me. Partially because I used to think that at some point I felt I had to. That it was everyone's duty to do something that was difficult for someone other than yourself. That was being a human being, and finding another human being to love.. I still believe people owe it to the world to be kind to each other and to strive for peace and harmony. that will never change. but I didn't have to do it, like I thought I did. I think I just had to prove to myself that I could do all those things. I had to prove to myself that while I wanted a comfortable life, I didn't need one to be happy. But my goodness it helps.
Nobody ever put more pressure on me than I put on myself. In every aspect of my life. That is a flaw I will be working to fix, probably for the rest of my life. Thank God I have an amazing insurance package*.

My ideal job is based on morals, and acting in good conscience, and talking with people. It's connecting with people and adding to the value of their life. It's a lot easier to fall asleep at night knowing you made it easier for a few other people around the city to fall asleep that night. if you look hard enough. You will always find what you are looking for. You just have to make sure your looking for the right things.

*PROTIP: buy insurance when you're young. it costs pennies on the dollar (literally) and you'll never lose it. Invest in yourself, and others will too.

Formspring Question #8

Formspring asked:
Has your behaviour with the opposite sex led to situations which make you anxious?

No. but the behaviour of certain people (of both sexes) has certainly done its part to make me an anxious person. Lies, Deceit, and Mistreat all leave permanent scars on people. even if you cant see them. When you leave any kind of a scar on someone they never forget you. but not in a good way. The better someone gets to know you, the better they see you. It's up to you what kind of person you want to be. Nobody can hide who they really are for very long.

I'll be the rain, falling on your fire escape

Lately I've been observing the social pressures of growing up in St. John's. It's largely money related in Newfoundland, a lot of things are, but I expect the rest of the world is no different.

It seems to be that a portion of people put a great deal of importance on money. choosing to acquire a great deal of education or a trade and get a job with security,  benefits and all the values of being responsible for ones one success. I think that the majority of us realize in our late 20's (mid to late if we are lucky) that in order to live comfortably we want more money. So we work toward a goal more long term for ourselves. Something with some promise of good money, reasonable rewarding work, and a fair amount of time to be spent as one pleases.
Some of these people do physically demanding labour, and work very hard to secure the life they want for themselves and their families. But I will be shocked if you don't know half a dozen lazy, useless, burdens on society who are collecting foolish paychecks for doing nothing except driving a big truck and talking about money. It's not just people in the trades, This just happens to be a prime example that is prevalent in my own community and relatable to anyone local to me, reading this. But it doesn't matter the example. There are people driven by insecurity in all walks of life.  

It's basically the typical fate for your high school's alpha males, be it business, sales, physical demanding jobs. All the ways they can prove their masculinity over other males that they are intimidated by. We get it Napoleon. you're dick is huuuuge. We're all super impressed. While we should all strive to be better, being better than everyone will take up far too much of your time to be lucrative in the long run.

The truth of it is money will make your life better. More comfortable. It is not always the most important thing. It's not the only thing anyone needs, don't be stupid.

Everyone needs affection, and love and understanding. We all have the same basic needs for acceptance and pride. but security buys all of those things. and what do you think you need to buy security?

Another large portion of people seem to reject money. I don't know what money ever did to them. Maybe they had a shitty parent who cared more about money then them. that would be a shame. but still, place blame where blame should lie. Seriously. 

I used to know some people who called themselves Freegan, but were really a whiny spoiled child version of the actual principle*. Lets call this one...Starburns. Starburns. It's sort of funny. In his mind, I think he sees himself as more of a Vaughn kind of character. but he is most certainly Starburns.

All of any of this rant boils down to is money matters. Without it, people who reject money wouldn't have anything to identify with either. Getting a good job and being comfortable are ok to want. it's not a bad thing to care about money and want to do well. but if you care about it too much one way or the other it turns you into a total douche bag. So don't be a douchebag. 

Not so much...

 *If it really means that much to you, go live in the woods and farm and live off of the land like less idealistic, smarter versions* of yourselves do. Why do you think your entitled to sign up for cellphones and cable and credit cards, max out all the limits and burn that bridge? You're nothing but a burden on society. increasing further restrictions on the rest of us because you saw an opportunity to take advantage for personal gain.
How Freegan is that? Commit to the life you preach, otherwise your just giving it a bad name. If we're not the ideal society for you, build a bridge

then build a farm.
live on your side of the bridge, on your own farm, providing for yourself, and leave us alone.

Yeah that's more like it..

Formspring Question #6

Solo1 says: This site is packed to the rafters with pointless bullshit and 14-year-old girls posting lyrics from stupid bands. Well done on not being one of those. "Getting offended about stupid things has got to be one of our societies biggest wastes of time".

wow. thank you so much. I've never been quoted before! haha Please feel free to ask anything on my blog, Hindsight. I get lots of negativity too. but that doesn't mean I can't try to make a difference.
I'm far from mediocre. so why should I settle for a mediocre world, that I do not want to be a part of? Thank you for your time. Positivity can prevail if we all chose to be active in making it! Why keep waiting for people to give us what we want, when we can make it for ourselves? - a.p.

V Day

 Ok, So im fully aware of my short comings (bahahaha comings) flaws as a blogger. But it is V Day after all and I had some errands to run. Also boyfriend is going on mini tour tomorrow so I had to get some supplies for a weekend of having the house to myself. Crunchits. Noodle Cups, the regular. I've been trying to play all the Walking Dead games on xbox, but I've been distracted by trying to establish a grown up life with a grown up paycheck. 

Trust me, it's just as boring as it sounds. I'd much prefer to be high and playing video games. But that is the goal isn't it? Work hard, not have any fun, for a long time, so that you can have fun on your own terms and it won't cost you anything a little later. 

I find it really hard to justify going on trips and buying expensive things right now. Mainly because I, as well as most of my friends cannot afford to. Not that we don't overindulge like anyone else.

Living beyond my means and poorly managing money have been monumental flaws ever since I was 16 years old. I always worked. Never asked for money from my parents or anything. I've actually had a lot of jobs where I made really good money...I could just never seem to hang onto it ha ha

This is all digression. Valentines day is why I'm writing this. V Day should not be about couples. It should be about love and kindness. Seeing the lady at Sobey's, and how her face lit up, when I asked where she got her hair colored, was excellent! I'm not coloring my hair anytime soon. but that isn't the point. I didn't ask for myself. I asked to show her that I noticed and thought it was a beautiful coloring job (it really was. great cut too) she told me that she had it done a week ago and her friends didn't even notice, only her boyfriend did. When I left she had a huge smile on her face. THAT is what February 14th is to me. It should be a day for us all to be a little nicer to each other. Not to expect presents and waste money and set expectations for all the people around us. Whether you love Vday or hate it, just shut up and be nice. Hold the door open for someone. I paid for the dude behind me in the mcd's drive through. He only had a coffee and a snack wrap. it wasn't that big of a deal. I didn't even stay to see his face when the clerk told him. But maybe he paid for the person behind him. or maybe that clerk was inspired to shovel his neighbors driveway? That's what it's all about. Kindness is contagious. But some of us have to start. I hope this post will inspire someone else. Share with me the nice things you've done for people today! and the things people have done for you!

The Kid's Aren't Alright.

Why are less and less people enrolling in university and higher education?
People's goals don't seem to be engineers or teachers, or doctors anymore. that is too much work. Gone are the days of people wanting to make a difference in the world.
I believe that, we are headed into what I am choosing to call an Emotional Ice Age. People have changed. Our wide eyed optimism is little more than Mister Magoo Staring over his steering wheel.
Fewer and fewer people seem to want to propel humanity, curing cancer, or working in government to change things. I don't understand people. Their goals are to make money. as much and as quickly as possible. Peace out, Self Respect, Morals, Humility and Humanity are quickly discarded in an effort to put themselves first, inn some kind of stranger, martyrdom that I don't understand. It's as though they have been abused and finally decide to start living for themselves, and stop giving everything of themselves to others.
"I'm finally going to put myself first. I'm going to do me.".
Except there was nobody taking advantage in the beginning. Merely a false sense of entitlement, and a glorious absence of sophistication.
All the things once deemed to be taboo or shocking, or just plainly inappropriate are now shoved into our faces as a sort of challenge to morals and common decency 
I used to believe that challenging someone's perception of things was a good thing. But i suppose it's only a good thing when it's being used for a good reason.
I guess the biggest factor (in my opinion) was a generation that think they were a lot more significant than they were. seemingly justified to bite the hand that feeds them.
Poor Kurt Cobain, getting to live his dream, and the dream of millions, and still being able to sleep at night knowing you're only amounting to a reason for conflict, and a fraction of the difference that you COULD have made to mental health issues/conditions/patients. AND! And having the nerve to complain about it.
I will never feel bad for someone with that much power and comfort. Especially when it's being wasted. You're happiness is you're own responsibility 
After this comes the new generation
A generation of over coddling parents, telling their children that they are special, and important, and putting them on a pedestal  terrified their going to be another Cobain, until that's all they've created. Self Indulgent, whiny children who know nothing other than how amazingly entitled they are.

the F word

I don't know why I even have a Facebook (F word. see what I did there?). For the most part it just makes me angry because a lot of people are really thoughtless, and for the most part, they couldn't find any Class or Tact, if they had a map.
A friend of mine made a statement (on a post, made by a band I follow) showing his support. He posted that he had his tickets to their upcoming show. I did the same, seemed like a nice, positive thing to do. Less than five minutes later his girlfriend charms her way into the conversation, to correct him stating that she had purchased his ticket for him.

Little gestures of disregard like this make me so angry. Emasculating, or belittling someone who means a lot to you. It's f**king stupid. I want to shout at them, "Do you have any idea what you mean to that person? You're so lucky and you're ruining it all on your own."
I hate that I have a button like that, that causes me to over react but realistically we all do.
I furiously typed out a post to share after I read her emasculating, rude comment. being reminded of all the things that could annoy one about this specific broad specimen person.
"wow. that's cool. How nice of you, Chang. He would probably lose his balls anyway, it's better that you hold onto them i suppose."

Ugg...What a dame.The small, corner of my brain that controls reason, caused me to debate for 5 minutes, but inevitably, delete my harsh words, and take to the almighty blog instead.

When did the unspoken loyalty between friends disappear? Or the maturity to treat your loved one with respect, and help build them up, rather than make jokes at their expense and embarrass them. These are small gestures, you may think don't matter, or things you dismiss, saying,"well he never mentioned it after", or "if she was mad I would know for sure"

Not everyone is the same. I, for one do not want to live in a world where "If I wasn't happy I wouldn't be here" is acceptable. or "I love you, until further notice" is the attitude taken toward someone you care about
I worry that the world is becoming too cold. Romance and Love are all but dead in a world that revolves around money and self preservation.

Live for the Weekend

My partner has an 8:30am-4pm office job, that I am so unbelievably jealous of. I'm not sure if he's aware of that or not. Don't you remember as a child how you went to school Monday to Friday and you enjoyed your weekend a million times more? Life doesn't lose it's magic as we get older. We just stop appreciating it I think, and I think it's because the rules were different. bedtimes were pushed back, You got to watch television  with the grown ups, or stay up while friends got together for drinks and kitchen parties filled with jokes and songs and neighborhood gossip. and Mondays were filled with stories of your weekend, not grief at getting up early.
Somewhere along the way Friday lost it's excitement. With the majority of my generation choosing to socialize in establishments that serve alcohol , and the introduction of the weekday bar specials, the weekend now takes place whenever we have a  day off, not on the once coveted Friday and Saturday nights. The weekend is no longer special. A partial factor has got to be a generational thing. I believe that a lot less of my generation (mid to late 20's) value, what is considered a "9 to 5 Job".I think most of us get to a certain age where it becomes a desire. I know I (at age 26) am currently working my ass off to achieve a job at which I make my own schedule and hours. Working all week is made that much sweeter by those two days of celebration. There is never anything new, exciting or unusual to do anymore because we do whatever we want, whenever we want to do it. Maybe we're just lacking the discipline of our parents generation. That makes sense as they, lack the discipline of their parents. So they started it. We just need to stop.

You say you want a resolution...

So it's that time of year where the tv tells me that people are considering their New Years Resolutions and the changes they want to make in the new year. I feel that this is a good thing for people to do. Seeking to better one's life is always a postitive thing as far as I'm concerned, as long as it's a healthy change. Making a resolution to change an aspect of your life is a big deal. It's a great way to move forward and out of a rut. I believe there are a few key guidelines that will make it a more positive experience and help to actually reach the goals we all set!

Set The Bar!
Setting your goals too high may end up becoming discouraging! make sure you're setting a goal that will make a positive change, without it being so drastic that you may not reach it at all. A lot of people make the resolution to lose a great deal of weight or to quit doing something, outright. These are drastic changes in ones lifestyle that are very very hard for even the most strong willed of people to maintain.

Think in Broader Terms
Think of all the small changes you can make in your daily lives to achieve you're goals. For example if weight loss is your goal, you don't need to live on celery. If you want a burger, have the burger! but instead of a giant heap of french fries, have a salad! opt for the healthier option during the week, and treat yourself to a burger on the weekend. What happened to the weekends being fun?

Know Yourself.
Be honest with yourself about the things you are unhappy about. Make a list of thing that you could do differently. I personally like to make a list and have all my options laid out in front of me.

Pat Yourself on the Back!
Sometimes it helps to have visual supports around, stickers on your calender, or notes to yourself when you accomplish minor goals along your path, Can help to encourage you when the going gets tough.

Habit Forming
Try to form new habits such as going for a walk every sunday, or taking the stairs at work or school. Implementing new habits will help you get into a new, healthier routine. thinks like regular meals erlaxation time give our bodies a lot of things we need to be healthy. and never ever discount a good night sleep, as it is invaluable for mind and body

What ever you chose as your New Years Resolution, I hope we can all spend some time thinking about the things we could improve about ourselves. Nobody is perfect, after all, it's in our very nature to strive to advance, in every other aspect of our lives. Why should the way we treat people and the things we do for ourselves not fall into that category?

Hitchin' A Ride

I found this article on twitter the other day. A great read for anyone in a long term relationship! Check it out
A couple different people have asked for my thoughts on marriage.
I do wish to get married. like a lot of people I'm afraid of being used and abandoned by someone I work really hard to make happy. This seems to be a very calloused way of viewing marriage, of course, but not a new one. Getting the proverbial Milk, without buying the Horse is not just about sex, much to the dismay of your staunch, religious Grandmother
If I were to spend entire years of my life caring for someone, and doing all the little things that I, personally, do in a relationship, I would feel as though I'd been grossly taken advantage of, were they to betray me. Being in a relationship, those things are very important to me. Making breakfast in bed when your partner has a big day ahead of them. Or going out in the rain to pay outrageous amount of money to get your lover her favorite flower, on your anniversary, just to see her face light up. These are things that everyone should do to show their loved one, their feelings. How else will they know if you do not show them? use your brain!

The issue I'm raising is, there is no compensation for the hours you spend getting your girlfriend that perfect Christmas gift. There is no insurance you can purchase to protect you and reimburse you for playing Nurse to a boyfriend who has been struck down by illness, self inflicted or otherwise. Take that in whichever context you chose, it's still a valuable gesture.

So naturally, I believe in marriage as a means for showing someone that you (a) value the things they do. (b) you're lucky to have them. and (c) do not want to be without them.
I will always be happy for people who find true love. Love is the purely, shiniest, most amazing thing and nobody should ever feel that they have to force it or hide it. Only the truly insecure and unhappy are made uncomfortable by talk of Love, and the Future. I believe I'm a lot more realistic than I've any right to be,
considering a childhood filled with Barbie's and Disney Movies. I believe there are different reasons that people get married, just like anything else in life.

God Bless America

So I watched This indie project tonight. It was essentially a 2 person rant, written by Bobcat Goldthwait. Remember him? Sure you do, but what you dont realize is now he's this guy :\ Awkward I know... and I have to give it credit. it's poignant and direct. there is no "what its trying to do" it just presents itself. It's bold, and I really enjoy that. The writing leaves a little to be desired at times, and the content gets a little "personal soapbox" for me. I found myself getting distracted by trying to picture Bobcat performing the monologues (both in the past and present). But the idea is so fresh. Black comedy is a tricky genre and I feel as though this film really nailed it. All the issues are completely forgivable

The film follows Frank, who in his 40's has amounted to be a disappointment as a father, a husband, and an employee. When an attempt to change his situation is thwarted by an unlikely friend, Frank struggles living in a time that is so far removed from his ideal society that he is driven to take action!

While Rotten Tomato only gave the movie 67%, I recommend checking it out. I wouldn't splurge on the Blu Ray, but there are quite a few very satisfying rants, that will have you shouting "YES!!!" at your television screen. Check out the Trailer for God Bless America, and rent it today! (yeah, people still do that!)