insanity later

I believe that I've lost all passion in my life. I don't know what job I want to do, and every time I'm sure that I love a new job, i don't love it anymore when the shiny new finish wears off.
I've worked everywhere in this city.
Hotels, restaurants, bars, a comedy club, I did child and youth care work with abused children, and now an insurance company. I've played in a band, done stand up comedy, acted for the majority of my life. I'm at a loss for where to go next, and I'm worried that I will never be content anywhere for much longer than a few months.
There must be something that remains satisfying for longer than a year. I crave routine and schedule. I'm not someone who says "why make $1000 when you can make $2000" as long as my bills are paid and I'm saving a little, I don't need to make all that much money. I have coworkers who just want to work all the time and make all of the money they can. I don't get that. I don't need that much money to get ahead. and technically you are taking it from someone else when you sell something. So I guess I view it as an issue of greed. I have no idea. I wish I could gain some insight into this issue. But I'm not even sure where to start anymore.
I'm realizing lately that tasks are seemingly becoming too daunting for me to start. I get overwhelmed easily, lay awake worrying about the future. I'm not in a stressful situation. I have an amazing new house, purchased by my amazing boyfriend, a brand new car, and a job that allows me a lot of freedom. So why am i so unhappy/stressed out all the time? uggg maybe months from now hindsight will cause me to reread this and understand this a little better.