Lately I've become so bored. Today I had the entire day off, and I wasted most of it. doing nothing. being bored. watching TV I didn't really enjoy or playing a video game that is boring to me now. I don't expect that anyone else is responsible for my happiness. I just have no idea what to do for fun anymore. The things I used to enjoy doing, I just don't enjoy anymore. A friend told me I need to move, and change and make a new start when things get "stale". I'm not really interested in moving any time soon, but I think he's right about the changing. Maybe I need to take some classes or something. Go to more shows and plays. The weird thing about depression is how hard is it to do really easy things. Most people are a little homebodyish I think. Everyone gets lazy and comfortable and doesn't want to leave or entertain or put less comfy clothes on. It seems to be a challenge to get me excited about anything enough to go. I guess an important thing to note is that I want it to change and am trying to change it. If you give up on yourself, there really isn't much point. at least in my opinion.
I would like to address some negativity that has popped up on my blog. Anyone who knows me knows that If someone had a problem with me I would like to know, and understand that person. I think we can all make improvements to ourselves and if someone respects me they should be able to face me and talk to me about their issues with me. If someone cannot respect me enough to give me that common courtesy than they don't really exist to me. Thus, bothering to give me your opinion about me, in a personal sense, and putting it in a hateful or deceptive way is a complete and utter waste of time. Nothing about you will ever affect anything about me so don't waste your time please.
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ReplyDeletepeople who try to correct your opinion are the kinds of people who don't listen to what you say anyway, they just wait for a break on the noise so they can lay down their "wisdom".
be thankful that you "got" to them in the first place. just picture them sitting there for an hour expertly laying out their argument, only to find out that no one gives a fuck. no one ever gave a fuck.
really enjoyed the video. You have some very smart points. Why hide behind anonymity? Sharing your identity only helps to strengthen our voice when it's to speak out again negativity. taking responsibility for the things you say is nessesary in our society where remaining anonymous and hateful is causing people to hate themselves. and hurt themselves.
ReplyDeletei'm not trying to be dramatic, but i don't need a name or credit for another persons words. and don't worry about being depressed every so often. before a thing can grow it has to stay still for a while get a feel for its surroundings and to see which way the light comes from. we alternate between growing and pausing. just a natural rhythm.
ReplyDeletethat is a truly beautiful thing to say. and your absolutely right. Positive words and thoughts don't need a face to make them more important. Thank you
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